If you love somebody… set them free.
I have never thought of myself as a captor. I am however really struggling with the thought of not being able to continue my life with the ONE I love. There was never another; not during, and not even before.
She says that we may end up reconciling, but at this time I am the only that wants that.
So why am I posting a public blog about something so very personal? I have no idea. I have no fear of people knowing such intimate details of my life. I have nothing to hide and no reason not to be so open.
that is what I strive so hard to be… OPEN. Open to possibilities. Open to alternatives to what is normal. It is how I have achieved anything worthwhile in my life. I was open to the idea (posed to me by robin) of returning to school after never doing any better than a 2.75 GPA. I was open to taking a chance to work at MySpace even though so much stacked up against it happening. And biggest of all, I was open to whatever would become of a lunch with a girl at a 50's diner back in November of 1992.
so now I am open to letting her go. I recognize that odds are really bad for a reconciliation, but I have no control of odds. I only have control of my hopes, wants, and desires.
For those of you who read this far… thank you. And for all of you who have reached out to me with comforting words… I am so grateful.
As for the right now… I have plans to take a wonderful girl dancing tonight.
Originally posted on my MySpace blog: http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=31517887&blogID=418399292